Noelle Benepe on Instagram: "Xander started having panic attacks after we went hiking one day. For some context, we were up pretty far and it was super windy and snowing I walked out towards the cliff to take a picure of my friend but from Xanders perspective it looked like I could fall, he thought for sure I was going to die. He was 4 when we lost my mom suddenly so the idea of being here one day and gone the next is a very real fear for him. For the next few weeks he could not leave my side. H